Thank you for your input, I truly appreciate it. I do not plan on leaving him because he is a victim of rumors, but now he is demanding to know what the naam shabab is. He feels that it should not be a secret kept from him. He is a non believer and will not go and find out for himself. I thought about avoiding going to the dera and speaking of it, but of course always repeating the naam shabad in my heart. But now it is almost seems to be impossible. I can no longer do anything and have left it in Pita J's hand. I know I have a clean love and heart for my significant other. If it is meant to be, I know God will be on my side and helo me through this storm. He threatens to leave the relationship, and I can never reveal the naam shabad, so we both are at an dead end. As for right now I have no choice left but to sacrifice.
And hopefully Pita Ji can help me.
Dhan Dhan Satguru Tera Hi Asra
P.S Is there anyway you can request an english version to be printed. I am an NRI and its unfortunate that I only know how to read english.
If not, then I guess I will have a family member translate it for me off the internet version.
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