I have had a face to face conversation, where it ended on a totally different note than I expected. My choice of words included that I have no commitment from him yet, so it is only fair that I follow my faith. I am not married, so how can I become a different faith, if we have no actual proof of commitment ( a.k.a being engaged etc.) So this led to him to decide that when that day comes ( probably not in the near future, still career oriented) where maybe a possible real life ( approved by all family) commitment is going to happen, then I must convert to being sikh and give up my faith. I being emotionally attached, agreed. At first I thought exactly what you said about giving him some bogus words. But I keep having this guilty conscious that tells me its wrong, because he trusted me and I just threw that out the window. But I just can not pick one over the other. For many of course this would be a simple choice. But for me its more than that. I see god as love and love and god. You can not just pick one over the other. I wanna be able to be part of both and I will not settle for one. We have agreed on no more arguments over this because me agreeing to him, makes him trust me. I don't want to lie. I will stay calm, remain true to my vachins and will put all of my effort in sumiran. Pita ji will listen, he is the only one that can do anything now. What I could do I did.
Thank you for all of your supports, it means a lot to me that I have brothers and sisters who can hep me through this obstacle.
Dhan Dhan Satguru Tera Hi Asra
Neha Insan
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